I felt very lonely ..Those were the days in my school..I had none to call me best friend..Brilliant students in class considered me an opponent..Average students considered me an above average student and did not let me in their group either..finally I was left all alone with wet eyes..Only happiness I had was when teachers made me stand and asked others to applaud for scoring in academics..but that happiness was momentary..It did not last long..I was always left alone..Once my teacher said "write a letter to ur best friend describing ur excursion.."I wrote that letter and addressed it to a girl in my class..That girl came near me and said "am I ur best friend?.I am not..first erase my name from ur letter."I looked at her and then with wet eyes erased her name..that is when I created my first imaginary friend and I named her B.gita(bhagavad gita-holy book of hindus)..From then on I addressed all my letters to B.Gita..
But that loneliness never left me until one day when she came to my class for the first time..She did not know english or tamil..she knew only hindi..I decided to get her friendship..I went near her and introduced myself..She was not ready to hear what I said..She was staring at me as if I was the ugliest creature on earth..I introduced myself again..she asked me "what is that in ur teeth "..I said it is a teeth clip..she did not understand..I had to explain..I asked her "do u watch shaktimaan??Do u know the character named gangadhar..If I dont wear this teeth clip my teeth will become like gangadhar's teeth and I will look awkward.."..She did not react much for it..then she came and sat next to me..I taught her all what I knew academic wise ..especially english grammar..two weeks passed and then one day I asked her "whom do u like so much in our class?" hoping that she will say my name..She said a girl's name in our class..and she liked her becoz she looks so beautiful,so smart,etc etc.." ..Another two weeks passed and I asked her the same question again hoping that atleast this time she will say my name..As u expect,this time also she said another girl's name and gave a reason that she is so talkative, cute etc etc..I never askd her that question again..I stopped expecting and started giving all what I can give..s ofcourse so much of love...
After few months we were in the chemistry lab writing an exam..I finished my paper and submitted it early..when she submitted,the teacher looked at her paper and it had so many mistakes in it...The teacher asked her "who is ur best friend"..She stood like an army officer with her head straight and said "MY Friend..NITHYA"..OMG!!!I was not able to believe it..My long wait came to an end that day..It was one of the most beautiful and cherishable moments of my life..Later after an year when we had to depart I met her in her home ..It was a full moon night..She looked at the moon and said "Nithya!!we may live in different places and when u look at the moon just remember me "...Believe it or not everytime I look at moon she is the first person who comes in my mind and her words start ringing in my ears..."
I can hear u people asking me "why are u saying ur nonsensical stories to us?"
I wanted to say few messages to u via this story..
1.Dont ever judge a person with external beauty..Beauty is not in looks..beauty is in character..
2.Dont consider urself inferior at any cost..Inferior feel is the worst feel in this world..It suppresses a person's talent completely..Do u know y I say this??
becoz I had an inferior feel that I am one of the ugliest creations of God
I had a feel that my smile looks awkward,I had a feel that no body will ever become my friend,I also had an inferior feel that I am the unluckiest person in the world..OMG!!!how stupid I was!!It really took some time for me to fight against this feel..I had to put my best effort to suppress my inferior feel ...So stressing again dont ever consider urself inferior..
3.Always ask urself "Have I done anything useful to mother earth?"If "nothing" is the answer so far then ask urself "what am I gonna do?"
4.On the judgement day how much you earned will not count.. how courteous u were?..how many u helped?? only such things count...
5.Life is beautiful..If not let's together make it beautiful...
