ade some mistake while writing something on the blackboard.I got up and pointed it out..she looked at me with utmost anger and shouted "you!!shut up"..I silently sat down..She was not ready to accept becoz I said it..the girl whom she considers to be stupid said it..the girl whom she considers to be ugly said it..It was hard for me to sit in her class until one day when I proved myself by winning in hindi oratorical competition..
U know y I say this story??Someway or the other Teachers like her were also responsible for my inferior feelings..one of my friends called me few days back and asked me,"Nithya!!!IS there any way to come out of inferior feelings??"..I am not a big personality to give suggestions or advices..But I can say how I fought it...
The following message will be of use to people like me..people with inborn self confidence can ignore it...
1.Love urself..
The main problem started becoz I thought myself to be ugly..so I decided to love myself..I used to stand in front of the mirror,smile once and say "Nithya!!I Love You"..Everytime I get depressed I used to stand in front of the mirror and say "Nithya!!!u are not alone ..I am always there with u"..It gave me little confidence as if someone else is giving me full hand support..Moreover when we love ourselves others will also like us..
2.friendship
Most of us studied in co-ed schools..But how many of us talked with everyone..very less..It was becoz we were said that boys and girls should not talk with each other..When I entered college I decided to break that barrier..I talked to everyone..In school I had an inferior feel that nobody will ever become my friend..To suppress that horrible feel I decided to volunteer myself and made friendship with almost everyone whom I came across..This really helped ..u know how??when I was asked to take seminars or any presentation,I never felt scared because I had a feel that I am not talking to strangers..I am talking to my dear friends..I am not at all a bold person..but such tricks gave an appearance as if I am so bold..
3.kill jealousy
Envying someone is also a very poor inferior quality..If u are jealous of someone it means u are digging ur own pit..Is there any way to kill jealousy??Of course ..every problem has a solution..here is another story for it..
Even in college I had a habit of studying my lessons everyday..But I never got the class topper award..A girl who studies in the last minute used to get topper award..I envied her at first..I was so jealous..then I asked myself,"Nithya !!!Will ur mother be jealous when u get award?? Definitely not...because she loves me"..friendship is also a form of love..I decided to love her...I started pouring my love on her..It really worked...I had a pride feeling that my best friend is getting the award..so I used to attend college day function just to stand and clap for her..now she is one of my best friends...
Did u find anything from the above said story???ssss..love is the only solution to avoid ealousy..
4.dont ever judge a person with their looks..only character and talent matters..
Everybody is talented in someway or the other..dig urself and find what is unique in you..
I have been doing this job of self analysis for the past 1.5 yrs..I quitted my TCS job 1.5 yrs ago..Last 18 months I have been trying several things..
1.read authors like kannadasan,akhilan,pattinaththaar,anuradha ramanan,ramani chandran,prabhanjan,bharati,paarthasarathy,indira soundarraajan,etc .
2.tried my hand in drawing..
3.tried writing stories,poems,articles..
4.learned names of 100 flowers
5.learned 100 songs of abhirami andhathi
6.started learning french and stopped it..
7.tried making clay dolls
8. tried learning photoshop too...
9.studied for government exams and wrote many too..
10.was so active on facebook..
11.above all bore so much of physical and mental pain,depression,desparateness etc,etc.
(Now i can hear u talking this "who wants all ur history??are u trying to show everyone that u are so talented??(romba overa perumai peeththikkiraa apdinnu neenga solrathu kekuthunga.. )...Definitely not..I am just trying
to say that dig urself and find ur talent..everybody is unique and everybody is talented too..I did all these above things just to find out what i am good at..I analysed myself just to find out what I am unique in..If a girl who considers herself "fit for nothing" can do this much, u can do even more..The worst part is even after doing all these when someone asks me what are you doing now?I say "summa daan irukken" (nothing):-(
5.Dont blindly run behind money...earn as much as u can and help as many as u can...
6.Truly speaking ,I dont get proper sleep these days..A single question continuously haunts me .."Am I worthy to be in this world??What am I gonna do to this society and to my mother earth??"..So far I have not found any answer to this question..
So stressing again, leave all ur inferior feelings..analyse urself and find urself...just working in an office and earning is not life..there is more to life..find it out...If u are jealous over someone just start loving them...u will not feel jealous anymore..every problem has a solution..find it out...love more !!!!smile more!!!life is really beautiful!!!!!!!
